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Welp lets see.......there's not much to talk about but knowing me i'll come up with somethin. It's officially Friday!!!! I'm fairly psyched! Most people i hang out with are in trouble tho....so this might not be so great....but no schoool and sleeping in so i'm happy. If it's nice i'll be outside gettin a tan. I might go see tyler and get the story about the fight at lunch and beat him up a little. Yea one of my guy friends got in a fight during his lunch (A lunch) and he's got 3 days oss. Luke isn't happy with him cause i think this might mean he's out of track for the season. Oh just thinkin bout it makes me wanna smack him so hard! Admittedly the other kid threw the first punch but honestly that just makes me mad. One of my friends mom's called my house while i wasn't home and asked if i knew where my friend was (it was like 10) but then my friend pulled in. Why would she be so late??? Speaking of friends OMG this same "friend" made me mad the other day at the track meet!!!!!! My ex came up to me and asked if i would be mad if he 'did' something withn one of my friends and i almost choked him!!! Okay so we ain't going out or anything but seriously?? He was like my FIRST love. That kid was just about the world to me while we were going out then he broke up with me (technically i mentioned it but he was leading up to it) then went back out with me, we broke up again at the beggining of this year, then we went back out for awhile just a little while ago and we ended up breakin up.......again. Then he goes and asks me That!!! What kind of person does that??? In deffense of the friend i've told her before that i was over him (lie) because i figure if you say it enough you might start feeling it....right?? I mean it's logical to think that if you say your over someone enough that you will actually be over them soon? That's what i figured but as of yet it hasn't worked so i'm gonna keep trying. WISH ME LUCK!!!! (((God i HOPE he don't look at this!!!!)))
On to happier subject now that i've got that off my chest. I think there's a chance i'm losin my bestestest friends.... (not happier subject but that's what comes to mind) it just feels like it alot of the times....i don't like it very much... Nother thing i don't like: Like 5 people have told me i've changed alot. I know i have to a certain point but i didn't realize how much some people didin't like it....it bothers me because 2 of the people who said it i really care about and don't ever wanna lose but they seemed like it was bad so maybe it is... because one of those 2 was there for me after luke hurt me pretty bad. This boy is just a sweetheart to me and he always has been. I wouldn't wanna do anything to hurt him. He seems like somethin is wrong lately but he hasn't wanted to talk about it so I've let him have his space. I just wish he'd tell me what's going on. He says that someone lied to him and he don't trust anyone anymore and that hurt my feeling but i didn't linger on that with him cause i don't wanna make him feel any worse. I just don't know what to do....... It makes me sad ='(

Time to go. LATER my peeps