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Welp. Its official. I'm taking a break from boys for awhile. i've tried to have some serious relationships lately but it just isn't happening right now so the plan is to just have fun for a while. I really have been trying to be a nice person and not explode on guys i've dated but last night that didn't really work out.....but that's okay cause the guy isn't that great and he was not a good kisser. echk =( i think my nose got involved with it to. Lol i will not mention names cause that would just be mean but after things that went down last night....I'm SOOO tempted! Anyways i'm gonna go look at my favorite person's blog now. =)=)=)

Doo-do-da-DOO!!!!!!

I have decided i'm tired of worrying about the guy drama in my life. What's the point? When your bored and need someone to talk to you will text your friends or boyfriend (if you have one but if you don't he may just be an interest) if they text you back there's a chance you will find relief from the fog that fills up life when there is nothing to do. The fog that clouds everything possibly fun from view and gives your mind the feeling that you will be forever lonely and bored, that makes you scared and on the verg of desperate to find someone that can relive you and bring the sun around so the fog will evaporate and you can be yourself. If the people you texted don't text back then you get desperate and text people that you normally wouldn't. I for one am guilty of texting people that normally i would never ever ever text just because i don't want to be alone with my own self and my brain. Thinking back on some of those times i have to wonder if your brain doesn't release the fog into your brain on purpose because in your subconsious it knows that good things come from the strangest places. There have been people in my life who i've text just because the fog had come and no one else was still awake and in the end he, yes again boys come back into the story, he changed my whole life and made me a better person just because he was there. This boy, not saying names, became one of my favorite people in the whole entire world and changed my life and me forever. He was my friend and secret keeper, rock and wings, he was the person i would look to before even my girl friends. In truth......I ABSOLUTELY LOVED THAT KID!!!!! and i still do, even tho i've never told him that and probably won't get that chance because he has a girlfriend now, his old one, and i havn't talked to him for awhile. Besides the fact that things changed between us and he got mad at me for a bit i still love him and still want to be there for him any time, any day because that's what he'd do for me. One day, when i get my phone back from my parents, as soon as i can i entend to tell him all of this...or maybe i'll tell him to read this.... He knew how i my brain worked so he'd understand the way i word things i think. Well i've given myself somethings to think about, which is what a journal/diary/blog thing is suppose to do i think so i'm gonna go. ttfn