Smileys =) Smileys =) Everywhere =)

Have =) you =) ever =) been =) in =) a =) really =) good =) mood =) and =) just =) felt =) all =) random =) and =) like =) you =) want =) to =) go =) skipping =) around =) ? =) HA HA okay so so now I kinda forgot what i was gonna write about cause of all the smiley faces lol oh well couldn't've been that important. I'm in a fairly good mood. Oh oh!!! I just thought of somethin to talk about and it's one of my favorite and most talked about topics....yup....boys. Clingy boys in particular this time. I don't like it when guys are clingy. For those of you who don't know what i mean by clingy i'll elaborate. To me a clingy guy is one where every time you talk to him he has to bring up the topic of "us" What do you think about us? Do you think we would work? I really like you and don't want to loose you. Sometimes i just want to Scream, 'Okay i get it you like me. I happen to still like you just like i told you this morning! If you keep asking me this question I'll start answering no.' but that seems kinda mean so i think i'll just go with mentioning it and act like it's not that big of a deal because technically there is no "us" as of yet. I know he wants there to be but i really liked him as a friend....and now that he knows i possibly like him as more than a friend he's changed..... To me he already acted like a boyfriend. He called me hun and sweetheart and txt me every day and we talked about pretty much everything.... Now he acts like a clingy boyfriend and i want just the regular him back....i wanna be able to talk to him about anything and everything....gosh i feel like a horrible person cause i keep flip flopping like this. One second i really like him and then the next I'm just like no i just wanna be friends....what do i say?? How do i nicely tell him that i liked him more when he thought we would be nothing more than just friends? Yes i told him that. When we first started talking i didn't think i would like him as anything more than just a friend and i told him that in the nicest way i could think of and then i start thinkin i like him as more than a friend and then i like him more when he thought we would be nothing but friends but i still think i like him as more than a friend i just want him to act like he did when he thought we were nothing more than friends. Only without him talkin to me about his girl issues cause that would be REALLY awkward now and I'd be kinda mad. Hmmmmm is it weird that he used to come to me to see if i knew the girls he thought were cute and see what my opinion of them were? I didn't think it was weird and i still don't but he better not now while we are "talking" Okay i think i have some of my feelings out so I'm better again =)

Bf or BF???

Boys....the phrase ''can't live with them, can't live without them'' comes to mind. I am a fan of boys most of the time...but not when there is drama involved with them. I must say that boys have just as much drama as girls but the difference is that once most guys have a good sleep everything is better with them. For girls....we dwell on things and pick at stuff going on, we think about them and sometimes not even our dreams are safe from the drama in our life. We will talk to our friend sometimes about it and ask advice from other people but it doesn't really help. You just don't know what to do anymore....
Have you ever liked someone as a friend and you thought that was all but then you keep talking to this person and you start to become really good friends...and this guy is one of your favorite people in the whole entire world and you would never want to lose him as a friend but.....you kinda start liking him as more than just a friend....when you see him in the hall you've started to feel funny and and your stomach is all jumpy and butterfly filled....I just don't know if it will work being more than friends....guess ill just have to wait and see....

DGFL :/

I agree with people who say that no one can make your choices for you. There are moments though, that I wonder if it would be possible to give up the controls for a little while. It would be kind of nice not to have to think but wouldn't that person not care enough to actually make sure it worked. Okay yea i have no clue what I'm saying. I'm just typing with a point in my head but I don't know how to express my thoughts. When things happen and I want to write about it I feel like I have to get it down right or I have to keep writing to try to explain it. Okay I want to stop typing cause if I continue I'll say something bad and live to regret it.

Maccaroni and cheese plz ;-P

Have you ever been somewhere and thought you knew exactly where you were but then you turn a corner and realize your actually nowhere you've ever been before? That kind of happened to me this weekend. I thought I knew where I was but with one simple turn I was confused, hurt, lost, and uncertain..... Why? I asked myself why over a million times yesterday and especially last night, and the honest answer is....I have absolutely no clue. I should've listened to my gut, and a few other internal organs, but I didn't and I'm paying for it now. Thoughts crowd my head and I just need to stop thinking so much but I can't. Marie was talking and made me think about something that never should've been brought up in the first place. Oh but she has to ask me this question. She has to make this one point, she thinks it would be a bright idea to point out a difference, not a true difference but one she thinks she's noticed. In truth it is opposite. She's the one who has waiting issues. Her brain works differently than mine, oh so very differently. I'm not sure she'll ever understand what goes on in my head. She hasn't had it happen to her and I don't think it ever will. She's my friend so I hope not

GLUUUUUEE!!!!!

Okay so typing this blog is kinda hard today. My friend and I decided to be real geniuses today in spanish class. We were suppose to be making a noodle skeleton because the teacher wasn't there and we did.....but then we got bored. So we started putting glue on our fingers and peeling it off. Eventually we ended up putting glue on our whole hand. It wasn't dry when the bell rang so we got our books and things and went out to the hall. Now I'm in this class typing with the glue still drying on my hand. Lol how amazing is that? Okay so I'm going to go try to peel it off....wish me luck! =D

Ask me straight!! LOSER!!

Have you ever noticed how sometimes people don't ask you a question straight out? Yea I've noticed that a lot lately but there's nothing I can do about it. I'd like to just say for the record sometimes hinting at the question isn't good enough, you have to say the words, the real words. Hinting at the question is ok but don't do it too much or the person your talking to is going to get very frustrated and give up trying to figure you out. Once you actually ask the question everyone is happier and no longer confused. I'm rambling but these are my thoughts and this is how my brain is right now just a big swirl of questions, thoughts and feelings that just jumble up and confuse me. I'm getting a hug :) I'm fairly happy about it, if it actually happens. We have a soccer game tonight and i had to miss soccer practice yesterday so i won't be able to start :( it's kinda depressing but i don't think I'll be out long, or at least i hope not. It's not my fault my mom is a blond. I got a book from Marie it is the second of the 'dead is' series and so far it's pretty good but I can't figure out how this girl hasn't figured out what's up with her boyfriend. He is either a shifter or a Were but she hasn't even guessed it. Well that's a story for you. Have you ever watched X-men Origin? Good movie. I watched it over the weekend and it entertained me, kinda. I got distracted towards the end and forgot to watch, I did listen though so i know what happened i just don't know what it looked like lol. It's not my fault....I'm a girl what do you expect?? Some things are just more interesting than a movie. Heehee Stephanie is a good friend :) she talks to people and tells them good things :) ok if you understood that raise your hand. Lol I'm in a fairly good mood. Okay well i think I'm going to end this blog now i might end up writing another.

Dang!!!

The orthodontist is not a very nice place. They hurt people and try to make people skinny by making it to where they can't eat. I am so hungry too. I try to eat but my teeth are killing me. Last night I think I took too much pain medicine and i don't remember much of anything that happened. My mother started asking me what I am going to do about what we talked about last night and I was like we talked?? Apparently i talked to Lucas last night and was saying i would steal his bubble.... What does that even mean??? I guess I'll have to wait for lunch cause he didn't explain it to me this morning. Why does everything come back to food? I'm not sure what you're suppose to blog about so I'm just rambling. I took some medicine this morning but not enough in my opinion, I can still think clearly. I wonder if anyone on the team has some...I'll ask around. Oh I'm talking about the soccer team for the one person *cough* rie that is reading this lol. Iplay that sport and i play anywhere normally but this year Adair, the coach, has me at defense most of the time. she says it's because i have long legs and can reach in and get the ball but who know. Hey there's Krystal! She plays too. Ok I'm bored with this thingy. Im gonna go look for a kewl layout. =) =D